Thursday, June 05, 2003

oh dear, i don't know what I am doing at the minute, i have gotten completely apathetic to my exams. The fact that I have my hardest exam tomorrow and I have not revised for it doesn't bother me in the slightest. The fact i went out on tuesday night the night before a 9am exam, stayed out until 4am, got off my face and then nearly slept in also doesn't bother me, the fact that after that exam everyone else in the course went to the library doesn't bother me, the fact I should have stayed in last night and not drank to the point of throwing up doesn't bother me, the fact that i should be in the library right now instead of pissing about on the computer doesn't bother me. What does bother me is that all the above does not bother me.

Sunday, June 01, 2003

one thing i have really noticed about being home this time is the number of birds around the house permanently singing, Its particularly bad at dawn when i get woken up by their inane twittering. I mean, i'm al for the country and the wholesome sound of birds singing, the fact thats theres grass and trees around me just sometimes, like at 5am it gets a bit irritating.
On a positive note i went to the gym today and actually achieved a good workout, something i haven't done since last summer. The sort of workout where you feel all good and bouncy after. Lovely, lovely.